I know I've been avoiding the subject the whole time I've been on break, but sooner or later, I'm going to have to come to realize that I am getting ready to begin my last semester of undergrad...and as some would say, enter the real world.
I was thinking about the past four years of my life, and all the amazing things that have happened in those four years. I have had some bad things happen in the past four years, and I've had some awesome things happen. During all the bad things, I would continully ask God why???
During the beginning of my freshman year, I asked God, "why do I have to leave all my friends from high school" and "why do things have to change" and "why do I have to be in a dorm room instead of sleeping in my own bed".
My sophmore year, I found myself asking God, "why can't I get this guy to like me" and "why in the world did I do that" and "why can't I get this guy to like me" and "why in the world did I do that"...you see the pattern.
Then my junior year, I asked God, "why did you have to take this person out of my life", and "why did I let myself act like that" and "why can't this decision just be easy".
During the moments I would whine to God about why my life wasn't working out exactly how I wanted it to, I had no idea that He would answer every single one of those annoying "whys". But as I look back now, I realize why He took that person out of my life...and why that very important decison was one I had to think long and hard about....and why all those guys never decided to like me....and even why things had to change in my life.
During all those moments, I was unhappy, or disappointed, or confused, or listening to sad country songs with my roommate, or crying on the futon with Jimmy legs....all the while, I was learning who I was and who God wanted me to be, even though I couldn't see it at the time.
I heard a preacher say that sometimes life hurts...we cannot understand why in the world things happen they way they do, or even what we are suppossed to do about them... but being molded into what God wants us to be is going to hurt sometimes...we are being shaped and molded into the person God wants us to be, and sometimes that means having to suffer a bit. But in the end, it will all be worth it!
As for entering the real world, I don't really know if that's going to be possible for me...Sometimes I think I live in my own little fantsay world, and I don't really plan on living anytime soon!!
Monday, January 5, 2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
2008: beast or beastly? by:log
well, there is only 2 days left in 2008 and i thought i would write how i feel about that.
i can say that
2008 was one HELL of a ride. maybe a bit of a loop de loop? looking back, it had its awesomes and its unfortunates. here is my blurry 2008 watercolor masterpiece: i turned 21 this year, saw a dear friend get married, finished up my 1st semester of my last year as an undergraduate, made the executive decision to take a year off of school, turned down the peace corps, fell in love with the art of streaking, worked with some of the funniest wide-range of people at virginia tech while learning that top of the stairs (or TOTS, as it's called around bburg) is apparently the "it" place to hang out, met a boy, broke that boy's heart, learned that bagels aren't for chasing vodka, developed a lifelong devotion to the song "picture" by kid rock and sherly crow thanks to a blissful night of karaoke in johnson city, and learned to play dutch blitz. i made new, wonderful friends who made me laugh until i cried, let friends go, and nurtured old friendships, fell in love with myself, slept in a box to raise awareness about homelessness, and got more bad grades then usual because i decided to enjoy myself. i became even more elusive than ever, spent a weekend at a monastery in kentucky (which turned out to be the best weekend of my life), and ended the year with an acute addiction to watching "celebrity rehab with dr. drew." i reconciled with my mimi who two months later had a stroke and is now in rehab (my family likes to call her amy winehouse), came to terms that i have no idea what the hell i want to do with my life and that's okay, and learned to fall in love with people. 2007 was a kr-azy year.
may your 2009 be full of fruition, semi-pure intentions, martini's galore, ultra breezy weather, comfy slippers, and the beach boys.
i can say that
2008 was one HELL of a ride. maybe a bit of a loop de loop? looking back, it had its awesomes and its unfortunates. here is my blurry 2008 watercolor masterpiece: i turned 21 this year, saw a dear friend get married, finished up my 1st semester of my last year as an undergraduate, made the executive decision to take a year off of school, turned down the peace corps, fell in love with the art of streaking, worked with some of the funniest wide-range of people at virginia tech while learning that top of the stairs (or TOTS, as it's called around bburg) is apparently the "it" place to hang out, met a boy, broke that boy's heart, learned that bagels aren't for chasing vodka, developed a lifelong devotion to the song "picture" by kid rock and sherly crow thanks to a blissful night of karaoke in johnson city, and learned to play dutch blitz. i made new, wonderful friends who made me laugh until i cried, let friends go, and nurtured old friendships, fell in love with myself, slept in a box to raise awareness about homelessness, and got more bad grades then usual because i decided to enjoy myself. i became even more elusive than ever, spent a weekend at a monastery in kentucky (which turned out to be the best weekend of my life), and ended the year with an acute addiction to watching "celebrity rehab with dr. drew." i reconciled with my mimi who two months later had a stroke and is now in rehab (my family likes to call her amy winehouse), came to terms that i have no idea what the hell i want to do with my life and that's okay, and learned to fall in love with people. 2007 was a kr-azy year.
and so, in honor of this redonkulous year that has thankfully come to an end, i have made a rather lengthy list (don't judge me, stay up out my bidness) of some favorite songs to celebrate. It's my "07 Mix" or"Booty Poppin' Beats" or even better yet:
"bringing home the baseball boys." (right, paige?)
windows in the sky- u2
conga- gloria estefan
hope- alanis morissette
havin' a party- shania twain and billy currington
watch over you- alter bridge
he can only hold her- amy wino
in the rough- anna nalick
strange and beautiful- aqualung
the woman with the tattooed hands- atmosphere
2nd movement 7th symphony in a major- beethoven
diamonds on the inside- ben harper
wouldn't it be nice- the beach boys
dancing with shiva- black bombay
womanizer- britney spears
what about everything- carbon leaf
caroline- john butler trio
what about now?- daughtry
the christmas song- dave matthews band
lovers in japan- coldplay
colors- amos lee
country roads- john denver
road to zion- damien marley feat. nas
dreamgirl- dave matthews band
driving me wild- common feat. lily allen
extraordinary- liz phair
ladies of the world- flight of the conchords
goodnight and go- imogen heap
happier- guster
keep breathing- ingrid michaelson
no one's aware- jack savoretti
girl i wanna lay you down- jack johnson
bust your windows- jasmine sullivan
lucky- jason mraz
no other love- john legend
p.d.a.- john legend
say- john mayer
after tonight- jason nozuka
homecoming- kayne and chris martin
killing me softly- fugees
oye como va- kinky
lady is a tramp- ella fitzgerald and frank sinatra
lady- lenny kravitz
kyrie for the magadalene- ??
just dance- lady gaga
lesson learned- alicia keys and john mayer
the world should revolve around me- little jackie
live and learn- the cardigans
lucy in the sky with diamonds- bono
don't cry for me argentina- madonna
come around- m.i.a. and timbaland
miss independent- neyo
sexual eruption- snoop dogg
flashing lights- kayne
doubting thomas- nickel creek
dolla dolla bill- wyclef, niia, etc
champagne supernova- oasis
yellow- coldplay
under pressure- queen
losing my religion- r.e.m.
robin thicke- everything i can't have
everyday- rogue wave
agnus dei- rufus wainwright
love song- sara bareilles
before the worst- the script
hips don't lie- logan lambert, I MEAN, shakira
single ladies- beyonce
chocolate- snow patrol
stay or leave- dmb
ebony and ivory- stevie wonder and paul mccartney
santeria- sublime
crystal baller- 3eb
it's not unusual- tom jones
the world exploded in to love- bob schneider
love is my religion- ziggy marley
ain't no mountain high enough- Marvin Gaye
let's get it on- marvin gaye
i believe in a thing called love- the darkness
dirty girl- bobby light
don't stop believin'- journey
god only knows- The Beach Boys
what goes around- JT
one small step- sparky's flaw
the idea of you- dmb
forever- chris brown
1234- feist
let love in- goo goo dolls
nothing then- the punch brothers
until you- dave barnes
and my CD cover:
may your 2009 be full of fruition, semi-pure intentions, martini's galore, ultra breezy weather, comfy slippers, and the beach boys.
Monday, December 1, 2008
thanks! giving. by: logan
it's finals time and i'm trying so hard to avoid a philosophy paper so i'm posting again!!!
so this years thanksgiving at the lambert household was much different then years past. mom decided it would be awesome to do a vegetarian dinner because as mom says, "the FDA doesn't give a shit about us and lets us put sick meat in our bodies which causes us to get all sorts of crazy-ass shit to grow in our bodies!" obviously mom has gotten a hold of my skinny bitch book.
so what did mom decided to feed us this thanksgiving?
tofurkey.
if you don't know what tofurkey is, it's basically faux turkey. made with tofu. (go ahead, it's okay to throw-up.)
we also had peas and carrots, WINE, and sweet potato pie for dessert! mmmmmmmmmmmpsych!
now, while i am very thankful that we had food on our table, i am not thankful for tofurkey.
or the FDA.
so i learned a lot this thanksgiving too, especially not to take people too seriously. story follows.
my mom's brother and his 15 year old son came to stay with us and i was having a conversation with my 15 year old cousin and he asked if i had a boyfriend. my answer shocked him slightly yet he went on (with my entire family present now) to ask when i was graduating and what i was majoring in. my answer of 'bible and religion' elicited a few chuckles and then as he put the pieces together, he arrived at the conclusion that since i was single and majoring in religion, i was inevitably going to become a nun.
for the remainder of the holiday weekend, my whole family addressed me as "sister logan caroline"... and i spent the weekend crying.
like i have said many times before, after all, i'm not the one whose spiritual gift is celibacy.
Coffee Time!
Ok, so Log has been trying to coach me through my virginity of blogging, and this is officially my first time! She told me to blog about anything I was thinking at the moment (which is at times very scary). As most of you know, I am bound by the sin of drinking coffee. It is at this time during the day that I do most of my thinking, so I will also dedicate some of this time to blogging as well! And just to give you an idea of the kind of thinking that goes on: Everyday, I drink my coffee out of a John Deere coffee mug, so don't worry about things getting too deep! But my thoughts will probably be thoughts of my spiritual life and the sort, not always, but most of the time. So here goes nothing..........
I am the type of person that cannot tell anybody no. Whether it is to drive them somewhere, or do their homework (which I can proudly say I haven't done since high school), or carry their plates up to the belt in the dinning hall. It is a problem of mine, but I am working on it. I just want to see my friends and my family happy. It doesn't really matter if I'm happy or not, just as long as they are. That means, I will do pretty much anything it takes to make them happy. I love them all and I care about them, and I don't want them to be upset or disappointed in me. Therefore, I bend over backwards at times to get their wants met.
So I wonder why in the world is it so easy for me to bend over backwards for my family and friends, and yet I'm reluctunt when it comes to making one step of faith for the Savior of my soul. I will get up and drive back to school at 6:00 in the morning just so I can stay home and be with my mom, dad, and boyfriend the night before. But when I have the chance to drive to North Carolina for a weekend to a church, I try to find every excuse in the book not to go.
I heard someone say one time that people will pay hundreds and hundreds of dollars to get front row seats at a concert. But when it comes time for church, they want to sit in the very back. Guilty!
If my sister were to ask me to do her a favor, I might resist just because it's my sister, but sooner or later, I'll end up doing whatever she asks me to do. But when I feel the Lord lay something on my heart to do, I question and question and question. No matter how simple it is, I ask the Lord, "why in the world would You ask me to do something like that?"
Why is it like that for me? Is it because I can see the people who ask me to do things for them, and its just easier? If it is spoken to me then I know its legitiment and I can do those things with the confidence that I will get something later on down the road in return?
(Pause for a refill)
I'm not saying that I never want to do anything else for anybody else because that would just be lazy and mean. But I would like to keep this in mind the next time I feel like the Lord is directing me somewhere and I don't go. I love my friends and family, and I wouldn't be any happier doing the things that I do for them. But when the Lord deals with me about something, I pray that I can be more willing.
"All the coffee grounds" (or final thought.....I know, cute right)
"If God told you to strap a bulldoser on your back and go out and serve Him, your question to Him should be, 'what kind of strap should I use'". (Log i thought you would enjoy that quote haha)
Feel free to leave a comment, or cuss my crazy thoughts, or whatever!
I am the type of person that cannot tell anybody no. Whether it is to drive them somewhere, or do their homework (which I can proudly say I haven't done since high school), or carry their plates up to the belt in the dinning hall. It is a problem of mine, but I am working on it. I just want to see my friends and my family happy. It doesn't really matter if I'm happy or not, just as long as they are. That means, I will do pretty much anything it takes to make them happy. I love them all and I care about them, and I don't want them to be upset or disappointed in me. Therefore, I bend over backwards at times to get their wants met.
So I wonder why in the world is it so easy for me to bend over backwards for my family and friends, and yet I'm reluctunt when it comes to making one step of faith for the Savior of my soul. I will get up and drive back to school at 6:00 in the morning just so I can stay home and be with my mom, dad, and boyfriend the night before. But when I have the chance to drive to North Carolina for a weekend to a church, I try to find every excuse in the book not to go.
I heard someone say one time that people will pay hundreds and hundreds of dollars to get front row seats at a concert. But when it comes time for church, they want to sit in the very back. Guilty!
If my sister were to ask me to do her a favor, I might resist just because it's my sister, but sooner or later, I'll end up doing whatever she asks me to do. But when I feel the Lord lay something on my heart to do, I question and question and question. No matter how simple it is, I ask the Lord, "why in the world would You ask me to do something like that?"
Why is it like that for me? Is it because I can see the people who ask me to do things for them, and its just easier? If it is spoken to me then I know its legitiment and I can do those things with the confidence that I will get something later on down the road in return?
(Pause for a refill)
I'm not saying that I never want to do anything else for anybody else because that would just be lazy and mean. But I would like to keep this in mind the next time I feel like the Lord is directing me somewhere and I don't go. I love my friends and family, and I wouldn't be any happier doing the things that I do for them. But when the Lord deals with me about something, I pray that I can be more willing.
"All the coffee grounds" (or final thought.....I know, cute right)
"If God told you to strap a bulldoser on your back and go out and serve Him, your question to Him should be, 'what kind of strap should I use'". (Log i thought you would enjoy that quote haha)
Feel free to leave a comment, or cuss my crazy thoughts, or whatever!
this is our first (second attempt) blog!
notice: we used to have another blog but we both forgot the password so we started a new one!
so if a few of the blogs look familiar its because you've seen them before!
we're semi technology savy girls.....we both have computers.....we both want to have a new york times best seller, and therefore we decided to have our very own blog!!
the main characters:
so if a few of the blogs look familiar its because you've seen them before!
we're semi technology savy girls.....we both have computers.....we both want to have a new york times best seller, and therefore we decided to have our very own blog!!
the main characters:
andrea: a native of pounding mill branch, va. she loves potatoes, peanut butter, and anything redneck.
logan: she's a senior who loves all things hippie, leafy greens, and raisins. she is from (what andrea considers the north) christiansburg, va.
so this is us, andrea and logan , and we invite you to be part of our blog as we post......we're just two girls standing in front of you asking you to read this. (that is a take from some movie. you are supposed to laugh here)
ok, that is all look forward to more entries!!
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